Sunday, fathers day, and I wake to the sound of grandsons playing. There is breakfast to be had and fun to be got on with. A message from my son wishing me a happy fathers day arrives as does a card and a box of chocolates. There are also other cards and well wishes. Before I can get up and get breakfast the family are off out to go and visit my partners mother so the my grandchildren can meet their great grandmother, be it only briefly.

Having had breakfast I retreat to the garden where I water some of the newly planted plants and then sit on the swing seat reading my favourite Pablo Neruda poems. I am beginning to think that the swing seat is my favourite spot in the garden. Since having the decking base put in for the swing seat I seem to have loaded the decking with pots of sunflowers, tomatoes and dahlias. After a long uninterrupted period of reading and cloud watching the family return from their visit to their great grandmother. I have a chance to have a long chat with my youngest daughter side by side on the swig seat. As we talked I was reminded of a couple of important things, one, is how bright and thoughtful my youngest daughter is and secondly, how challenging it is for children to learn how to be parents. Deciding to make Wills had raised all sorts of issues for my youngest daughter and her partner about how to best safeguard their boys and each other should anything happen to them. Of course Wills are made in the hope that they are never going to be put into effect if you are a young parent, so it comes as a challenge to think about all the unwanted possibilities. The are are also issues about where to raise young boys and in what sort of environment. Our conversation comes to an end when lunch is announced.

After lunch the grandsons and parents pack themselves and all their kit into their car and drive off into the distance and home. I and my partner stop for a drink and catch our breath before we start to tidy up and get the house back to its normal state. During the afternoon a strange Amazon packet arrives with my name on it but a variant of my address. When I open it there is a mobile flip phone. It is certainly not anything that I have ordered. I and the family By tea time we are about straight and I settle down to watch an early world cup football match. With a brief interlude to watch another episode of an American police drama there is time to watch another match. It is another giant versus minnow game where the minnow gets an unexpected draw. I take my meds and go to bed knowing I need to be up early as tomorrow is one of my Jab Mondays. The basic drug fight against my prostate cancer will go on in this form as long as I live. That’s a really strange thought to live with.

Monday and I wake up with a bad gut. I get up and find clothes for the predicted heat wave. My partner takes me to the GP surgery and waits with me until the locum nurse calls me in for my jab. She is quite chatty and seems to be aware of the nature of injection. She takes time to find a suitable injection site and takes her time injecting the fluid and then gentle massaging the area to encourage the dispersion of the drug as she was aware of the tendency of it to clump into a lump. My partner takes me home and then goes off to the gym while I have a cursory tidy up, have breakfast and my morning meds before settling down to watch Sir Kier Stammer resign as Prime Minister. The mystery of yesterdays strange parcel gets solved when a friend messages me to say that she has accidently sent her husbands new phone to me by mistake. I agree to post it to her as soon as possible, and then I continue to tidy up and start to draft the blog for the last two days until my partner returns briefly before taking off again with her brother to visit their mother in the care home.

A bag of T shirts and over shirts (shackets) arrives for me, so I try them on and then integrate them into my wardrobe before lazing for a while and then taking the return parcel to the Post Office. My injection is making itself known as it gets sore so I ease into an evening of world cup football and not a lot else. After football and some Brokenwood Mystery episodes I take my meds and get myself to bed.

Early Saturday morning my blood results come in and they pose me a question, ‘are they good enough to continue the chemo rechallenge?’ Its a nice problem to have but I’m not sure how I am gong to work through it. I need to give it time and I need to see if going back on the steroids is going to give me any more energy to continue with. Its too early to know this and I need to use my chemo rechallenge holiday to monitor my well being and see how I am by the 1st of July. So I have some breathing space to see how I am and make a decision about more chemo.

My chemo rechallenge base line PSA was 10. so my current PSA of 3.4 represents a 66% fall in the six months of the chemo rechallenge. Is this is this good enough to increase my survival time? I do not know. The real kicker is that no one knows. The research reviews would say this is a significant fall but it is not possible to predict whether or how quickly the prostate cancer will re assert itself as shown by a rising PSA. At the end of the night I take my meds and go to bed hoping for sleep and more energy.

So I go to bed late with a conundrum and the result of the Scotland v Morocco world cup game. Scotland lost to 78 second goal! When I wake up in the morning at 10 o’clock the family are out and about apart from my eldest daughter. It takes me time to get up and get going, I have little energy and it is exhausting doing the ordinary things like dress and eat. I make breakfast, take my meds and begin to draft the days blog. It feels like I’m not going to be much use today, I certainly won’t make the Poetry Stanza meeting this afternoon, which is a shame as I miss the group and the poetry but I am how I am at the moment and need to keep things manageable.

As the day moves on I find I have more energy so by the time the family return from the the trip to the local Tropical Bird Garden I’m up lunch and some gardening with the older grandson. We plant some tomato plants and re-stake the sunflowers. Mid afternoon, while I rest on the garden swing seat the family go to the local shop and return with a try of plants for me to plant into an ornamental pot. With this done I hang a newly planted hanging basket and tidy everything away. Time to retreat to the recliner and watch some Paw Patrol with the grandchildren.

The family eat ta together and then the bedtime routines kick in for the grandsons. They have had busy days and go to sleep immediately they go down. The adults relax for a while but its not long the parents go off to bed hoping to get a full nights sleep. I and my partner watch a world cup football while doing other things. I order over shirts and T shirts in anticipation of a warm spell coming along. With the match over there chores to do, meds to take before going to bed.

Friday and the first day of a thirteen day chemo holiday. My first task is to get up, shower and get ready to go to the GP surgery to have another blood sample taken. Taking a shower knackers me, I have no energy at all. I have a simple breakfast and then I ask my partner to take me to the GPs. We arrive and sit in the waiting room for a short while before I am called in. I show my forearms to the nurse who asks who was responsible for my bruised left arm. I tell her she was but the reality is that I bruise more easily than I used to. She uses my right arm to take the blood. We have a chat about the reason my last bloods were rejected and we check the on screen details against the bloods form, they match, as do the labels on the vials. I leave with my partner.

Once home I ring the prostate cancer specialist nurse. I have to leave a message as no one picks up but I do get a call back quickly. I explain that I have not had any Prednisolone for five days and that all the advice I have been reading says that I should be tapered off of it. She listens and agrees I should be tapering. She says that she will ring the consultant. A few minutes later she rigs back and says that the consultant thinks I will be okay but he is going to email his secretary a proscription for more Prednisolone and that I will get a call from her. Before the secretary can ring me the hospital pharmacy rings me to tell me that the drugs are ready for collection and that people are keen for me to be taking them as soon as possible.

My eldest dies me daughter accompanies me as I Uber into the hospital pharmacy. The service is very speedy and we are soon Ubering home having bought strawberries from the stall outside the oncology centre. No sooner than we had returned than my youngest daughter and family arrived to visit for the weekend. It had been a rough journey with a lot of accidents along the way.

Everyone settles in and rests as much as possible before the evening meal. I am very tired by now and take my newly dispensed drugs. I shall be staying up to see my blood results, which means I will get to see some of the Scotland v Morocco world cup game, unless my bloods get rejected again.

Thursday, the last day of cycle 8. I get up and get ready to spend the majority of the day at the gym. I take my meds and fill my bag to take to the gym. Mid morning my partner and I go to the gym, while my partner goes to her aqua class I eat a bacon roll, read and write some verses influenced by it being the end of Cycle 8 and probably the end of the chemo rechallenge.

539
Last day,
Amen.
Cycle eight ends,
Amen.
The oncologist says,
‘stop’ 
and I am pleased,
my body is weak
and I need
to rest,
My scars beg
to heal,
my veins plead 
recovery,
and the bruises pray
for dispersion.
I’ve done my rounds,
the bell has rung
and I drop
into my corner
knowing the ring
is no longer mine.
Amen.

				539 18-06-2026

540
Brought to my knees
I can take no more.
The poison has done its work
and my body has fought
but has no more.
Now comes the wait,
I will recover, or not.
All I crave 
is to be able 
to do
the ordinary.

							340 18-06-2026

541
Boxing day 
to
Fathers day
that was my rechallenge.
Now I pick up the dice
and see what 
numbers my body
will roll.
PSA up or down?
Will my neuropathy 
leave my hands and feet?
Will my energy return?
These and so many more 
questions hang in the air,
that see me 
waiting and seeing.
Its a cliff hanger
waiting for poems
to follow.

						541 18-06-2026

My partner joins me in the gym lounge and we have lunch. We then go to the beauticians and check in. I have my nails done and it includes having my world cup art work on my nails, a St Georges flag and a football.

I return to the gym lounge where I meet my brother in law and a niece. We chat family chat for a while until they go home. Soon after my partner appears and we drive home. Of course there is world cup football to watch and tea to eat before I draft the blog to a background of an American police drama. There will be another game to watch and then I head for bed. Tomorrow I have to get the GP nurse to take yet another blood sample, so I’ll be up early to get ready. I will be interested to see which vein they use to get the blood out of me.

Wednesday and its a oncology review Wednesday, so I get up and immediately check to see if my blood results have come through. They are not posted. I make breakfast and take my meds. I settle down to watch the football highlights I missed yesterday expecting to be called by the oncology team for my review. To my surprise the call comes around 11 o’clock and not the 2:30pm I was expecting. A woman introduces herself as one of the doctors on the team and then tells me that we cannot do the review because the bloods I gave have been rejected. Apparently the information on the form and the vials did not match. As the review cannot be done without the blood results, she tells me that they will reschedule me for next week and will send me conformation. I immediately ring the GP surgery and have a conversation with them about a new set of bloods to be taken. It takes time to get through to the person on the phone that there is some urgency in my request and not just a whim. After some consultations I finally get an appointment for Friday morning.

Having made my blood arrangements I settled down to watch Lionel Messi score his hat trick in Argentina’s opening game at the world cup. The doctor from oncology rings me again and tells me the consultant (he who made a pact with the devil), has told her to schedule me for a fortnight, not one week, as he feels it will make no difference. She also prompts me that the consultant is advising me to stop. I responded by saying that the consultant and I have had these conversations before and note that the oncology review will be on Wednesday July the first. All I can d now is to see if my body recovers in the next two weeks. Hopefully I might get more energy and less fatigue and the neuropathy decrease in my hands and feet.

I am not sure if I feel relief or not but I do know that my 28 day injection is due Monday, so life is not free from all cancer interventions. With my cancer arrangements done I return to working on the manuscript of the next poetry collection. It is a fiddly task but I eventually get to the end of it. By the time this is done its time to watch some tennis and to begin to draft the blog for the day. I am in the middle of this when my partner returns from visiting her mother in the care home and the garden guy turns up.

This evening is of course football dominated with a early six o’clock match and then the main event of the day, England’s opening game against Croatia. So I shall be settled down at nine o’clock to see if the England side can actually produce a reasonable performance. Tomorrow is officially the last day of Cycle 8 of the chemo rechallenge, it maybe the last all together, it is also the day I get my nails done. I suspect that I will come a way with some suitable world cup nail art.

Monday, I wake up feeling crap but get up to move my car so that my partner can go out. I stayed up last night to get my blood results, but they never came. When I check this morning and during the day they still have not appeared. I therefore do not know what my PSA level is and whether or not it is rising or falling. It was on this piece of information that I was going to base my decision about more chemo on.

I spend my morning and afternoon resting, feeling weak and without energy. I do fill my drugs dosettes for the next two weeks. Eventually I write a bit and start to draft the blog. When I feel like this I do not know what I want or how to get the energy to do anything apart from sit. In all likelihood this is me for the day now. Perhaps football to night then back to bed. I do ring my GP surgery about my blood tests and get told that the report has been done and gone to the oncologist, so I guess this set of results has not been posted on ‘patent knows best’. This means I am dependant on the oncologist telling me what my PSA level is and then me making an off the cuff decision. So its all on tomorrow then!

538
Bad day,
Feeling terrible, 
Don’t know why.
No blood results
from yesterdays tests,
crucial information 
not coming through. 
Tomorrow I have to decide
whether to go again
or bail out of chemo.
No PSA level 
to judge efficacy
means no data,
I’m in limbo
and feeling
shit.
I feel like the boxer
having been hit
knows it is only a matter of time
before they meet the canvas.
Weak, but brave 
the end is inevitable
now that last piece of hope
has gone missing.
Standing still, 
facing the opponent,
arms heavy,
legs dead,
trying to move,
to dodge and weave,
feeling hollow
and waiting.
So here I am 
still standing,
hoping for a last minute
moment of reprieve,
a bell or towel to end 
this round.
The irony being
that this is one big 
rematch that goes on forever,
until eventually I succumb,
and can fight no more. 
Perhaps my corner
will split my glove,
call in the cuts man
or just sit me out,
I need the bell,
the retreat to my corner
and a chance to do
something different. 
No more,
my body
cannot do this 
anymore. 
My head,
my spirit
are willing 
but the limbs 
can carry no more.
I need rest.

								538  16-06-2026

Monday, bloods Monday, so I am up early for me and by 8:30am I am at the GP surgery. I try to log in on the automatic system and fail. I am directed to the reception. The receptionist checks the booking system and finds that my 28 day jab has been booked in as a blood taking but todays blood test has not been booked. There is some admin magic done and I am asked to take a seat. I no sooner sat down and I was called in by the nurse. My bloods were taken quickly and I was soon home.

I had not been home long when Open Reach arrived to install fibre broad band. Because they needed a cherry picker to install the fibre cable the cars needed to be moved off the drive to make space for the cherry picker to be used. I park my car across the road while my partner takes hers to the gym. While the installers get to work drilling holes, fitting junction boxes and laying the fibre cable I spend my time going over the edited version of the next poetry collection. Its painstaking work as I have to go over every poem and the suggested edits made by my editor.

The fibre broad band is in and working by lunchtime, when my partner returns from the gym. We have lunch and then I return to my poetry editing. My partner goes to see her mother in the care home. The rest of my afternoon is spent editing until my partner returns and I find myself having a nap having reached the end of my editing.

My evening is all football, match after match as I wait for my blood results to come through. I am apprehensive, so much hangs on this set of results. I’m going to have decide whether I continue based on this set of results.

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Friday and in a determined effort to be ready for the visit of my youngest daughter and her family, including the two youngest grandsons my partner and I go to the garden centre for breakfast. In an attempt to fuel myself for the day I order the largest English breakfast they have. A rare treat, which I enjoy heartily. Once full of breakfast my partner and I go to the food hall and lay in provisions for the weekend family visit. Returning home we squirrel away the food and with a delivery from Tesco due later in the day I am beginning to think that we could do with a larger fridge/freeze.

I spend some watching the tennis and being impressed by the fact that a British player actually won and progressed to the quarter finals, in fact two British women reached the quarter finals. The day progressed to yet another world cup football match involving one of the hosts Canada. It was a scrappy game with the hosts grabbing a draw late on. In the middle of the game Tesco deliver early and mid match we are faced with getting all the food stashed away. I eventually went to bed having taken my meds and focussed on getting up early to greet the visiting family.

Saturday and the news is that my youngest daughters family are ill, a tummy bug has laid them low so they are not coming today, maybe tomorrow. I am disappointed but pleased they are taking the sensible decision. I take to watching the tennis again and remain impressed as the British number one wins and gets a place in the semi final. My partner and I return to our favourite garden centre to buy “million bells”, a small plant that flowers profusely and does well in our garden. Of course while there we pop into the café and indulge in a bacon roll and a decaf coffee, which I have found my body will tolerate. Once home my partner head to the garden and finds homes for all the new plants. I do potter for a bit in the garden but I am not much help and end up watching the British tennis player play for the second time in the day and winning a place in tomorrows final.

The evening slides into world cup football I confess that I am suspecting that I am already beginning to get tired of it, even at this early stage. The patterns of play are all very similar and the creativity on display is low. Occasionally someone scores a really good individual goal or there is sufficient needle in the game to provide level of entertaining brutality. I watch the late game, take my meds and go to bed in anticipation of tomorrows visitors.

Sunday and I wake up to the news that Scotland have won there over night game at the world cup, which has pleased a friend of mine who stayed up in the small hours of the morning to watch the game. The next message was less happy, my youngest daughters family continue to be ill so will not be coming to visit at all this weekend. I am disappointed but it is for the best, you cannot be traveling around ill with two small children. There is a mountain of food to reorganise so there will be some freezer activity and reorganisation of the “stores” to be done. I get up and have breakfast and fill in my world cup wall chart with the overnight results. then catch up on drafting the blog.

When I come to take my morning meds I realise that I have run out of the twice daily steroid that I take. Because I delayed Cycle 8 by a week it means I am five days short of the daily steroid. I am not bothered really, five days without them is not going to do me any harm and if I am deemed unfit for Cycle 9 or I decide to discontinue to stop the chemo rechallenge I will be stopping them anyway from Wednesday when my next oncology review takes place. It neatly brings me back to the decision I have to make about continuing with the Chemo rechallenge. At the moment I do not know as I have pinned my logic on the out come of tomorrows blood results. If the PSA level is reduced (by how much is another question that I need to think about) then I have to seriously consider continuing as it means the chemo is actively working and it seems illogical to me to stop a treatment that is demonstrably affective. Driving the PSA level to as low as I can get it seems to me be the aim of this treatment. If the PSA level has decreased by a significant amount in tomorrows bloods then Cycle 9 looks like the reasonable choice. What is a significant amount? To be honest I do not know, but I do know that when I see the results I will either get a feeling of “that’s good or not bad” or an instant heart drop moment of disappointment. If it is the latter then its probably time to stop. The drop in the PSA will have to have been worth the post chemo crap that I went through on this cycle, some of which I am still experiencing. It is a fine balance but I am craving a period of rest and a chance for me to recover some of my energy and a chance to build up some strength.

So for today I prepare for tomorrows bloods by drinking lots of water, to boost my platelet reading, and to potter in the garden till my energy runs out and I retreat to tennis and football on TV. Tomorrow is a crucial day, it is also the day the BT engineer turns up to put us on the fibre network. I have no idea how that works, I am hoping it is a straight forward process where he plugs things in and then buggers off and the world continues as before, given that my current broadband works perfectly well. In the meantime I will see if Radacanu can win a tennis tournament and whether Germany can beat Curacao football minnows.

While watching the British tennis player loose the championship final my new poetry collection is delivered. It is Idanre and other Poems by Wolfe Soyinka, which I discovered, or at least the poet, while watching a programme about Mahomed Ali. Wolfe Soyinka read a poem about Ali at the end of the programme. I only found out that he is a Nobel Prize winner for literature in 1986 when the book arrives. I try to read some of the poems and realise that these poems are going to need some time devoted to them.

I spend the evening watching football and checking my emails. I find that there is a draft edit of my next poem collection from the person who is editing them for me. So over the next few days I will be going over the edit to see how much needs changing. For now its time for bed.

Wednesday and a day of torrential rain but also the day that my partners mother moved to her new care home, so at last she is somewhere safe and caring and not in a hospital. I of course got up late and spent most of my day finishing reading (what a luxury) Before I knew I Loved You, the sixth book in the Before The Coffee Gets Cold, by Toshikazu Kawaguchi. It is a lovely book and he keeps finding ways for people to travel forwards or backwards in time without changing the present. It is typically Japanese in sensitivity and delicate handling of emotions.

By mid afternoon I had finished the book and turned to the Queens Club tennis tournament for entertainment. So I watched two players slugged it out until rain stopped play, by which time my partner has returned home from seeing her mother into her new care home.

In the evening my partner wen tout with a friend for a meal and left me to do a Tesco order and to watch the last friendly football game England were due to play before the World Cup starts properly tomorrow. The kick off was delayed by an hour till 10 o’clock due due to the huge thunder storms in Florida, after which England won 3-0 against Costa Rica. It was midnight before the last kick of the game by which time I was ready to down my meds and get off to bed.

Thursday and I wake up knowing that today the world cup starts and my giant wall chart will need to be got out and activated. My partner goes off to the physio after bringing me a hot a hot water. I check my messages and news feeds before tasking my vitals. They are average, which is okay for me. When I finally get up I head for the shower, noting on the way that the heating had come on, so not only is it throwing it down with rain but the temperature had dropped markedly as well. I do not expect the heating to come on in June! Feeling clean and refreshed I cook myself a cheese omelette and tomatoes, take my meds and start on some life admin. Fiddly little jobs like checking the stray lotto ticket and paying the window cleaner by BACS. They all take time and are all inconsequential, unless of course the lotto ticket is a winner and the window cleaner is not suing you for non payment. Its amazing how “little things” can become monstrous for the lack of attention. Once again it teems with rain meaning that the tennis is delayed, so I start to draft the blog for yesterday and today. There is a final Tesco order to be done and organising for the visit of my youngest daughter and her family at the weekend. It seems that there is quite a lot to do before I get to watch the first world cup football match this evening and begin to use my giant world cup wall chart.

In reflective mood I was thinking about the course of my cancer experience and had the sense that this has been going on for a while with all its changes of medication and fallow times so I returned to looking at all the phases the blog has been through that reflect this process. There have been some prolonged periods of relatively good wellness and other periods where what was to happen next was in the balance. This current period of rechallenge is 192 days long, during which my PSA has been going down, so a reasonable period of success against the disease, but in which I have suffered more physically than since my original chemotherapy. So it seems I have to calculate the balance between how I am physically and what gain there is to be had from further chemo rechallenge. The PSA level as measured by Mondays blood tests will give me some idea.

BLOG PHASES AND DURATION IN DAYS

WELCOME ALL: 01 SEP 201 TO  01 SEP 2019 1 DAY
INDUCTION DAY: 02 SEP 2019 TO 02 SEP 2019 1 DAY
CHEMO DAY: 04 SEPT 2019 TO 05 JAN 2020	120 DAYS
FINGERS CROSSED PHASE: 07 JAN 2020 TO 23 MAR 2020 77 DAYS
AS GOOD AS IT GETS PHASE 1: 24 MAR 2020 TO 08 FEB 2021 322 DAYS
AS GOOD AS IT GETS PHASE 2: 10 FEB 2020 TO 21 DEC 2021 315 DAYS
ANTIANDROGEN: 22 DEC 2021 TO. 22 FEB 2022 63 DAYS
AS GOOD AS IT GET AGAIN: 23 FEB 2022 TO 31 OCT 2022 251 DAYS
ROCKET:  01 NOV 2022 TO 21 DEC 2022 51 DAYS
ROCKET BOOSTER: 22 DEC 2022 TO 06 MAR 2023 42 DAYS
RUN UP TO RADIO THERAPY: 07 MAR 2023 TO 17 MAY 2023 72 DAYS
NO MANS LAND: 18 MAY 2023 TO 29 MAY 2023 12 DAYS
REARMAMENT: 30 MAY 2023 TO 07 JUNE 2023 12 DAYS
REARMED: 08 JUN 2023 TO 09 JUN 2023 2 DAYS
CHEMO II: 10 JUN 2023 TO 18 AUG 2024 435 DAYS
ANGINA ADVENTURE: 19 AUG 2024 TO 25 SEP 2024 38 DAYS
CHEMO II THE RETURN: 26 SEP 2024 TO 13 APRIL 2025 199 DAYS
MOVING ON: 14 APRIL 2025 TO 16 SEPT 2025 155 DAYS
WITH A DASH OF STEROIDS: 17TH SEPT 2025 TO 12 NOV 2025 57 DAYS
STICKY WICKET: 13TH NOV  2025  TO 01 DEC2025 19 DAYS     
CHEMO RECHALLENGE: 02 DEC 2025 TO today (11-06-2026) 192 DAYS


TOTAL  BLOG DAYS TO DATE:11th June 2026 2476  (6 years 9 months 11 days)

I guess it will depend on how I view the balance and what I consider my priority, quality of life or longevity. Somewhere in there I am hoping for a sweet spot.

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The evening arrives and I settle down after tea and watch the long drawn out opening ceremonies of the World cup. It takes hours to get to the actual first game, Mexico v South Africa. With football over for the day I take my meds and head for bed. Tomorrow is a chore day in readiness for the visit of my youngest daughter and her family

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Tuesday and I wake up not quite as chipper as I was yesterday. I drink the hot water my partner brings me before she goes to the gym to do aqua aerobics. I read my messages and news feeds before taking my vitals. My blood pressure is still good and my heart rate is maintaining its lower rate. Eventually I get up and have pizza for a late breakfast along with my meds. I do the days crosswords and watch the women’s tennis from Queens. Over the course of the morning and afternoon I get to see two English women get through their first round matches. My partner returns for lunch and is then soon away to see her mother into the new care home. I continue to watch tennis and do odd cleaning chores. I find an interesting array of objects and bric-a-brac down the back of, and under the reclining sofa in the lounge. Amongst the debris was the pen top I had mislaid yesterday, so I am content with the outcome.

The garden guy arrives with a pick axe and sets about cutting back the bamboo that the neighbour had noted was up against their fence. The work goes well and in the end the bamboo is separated from the fence by a solid plastic membrane, which holds a pebble pit. There is no way the bamboo will clump that far again for at least seven or ten years, so it will not be any concern of mine. The garden guy then sets about weeding out the flower beds until he finally waved good bye.

All this time my partner and her brother were waiting for their mother to arrive at the new care home from the hospital recovery unit. At almost 5 o’clock there is still no sign of their mother being delivered to the care home. It appears that early evening is going to be the soonest. I continue to draft the blog and think about food for the evening and suspect that this might be a take away day. My evening will drift into the England women’s football qualifier against Ukraine tonight at 8 o’clock. While I wait to see how the evening is going to work out I get another version of the cover for my next poetry collection. The person doing the designing has done a really good job. There is a small tweak to make but I think the design is very clean and direct. I am happy with what will be the finished version.

It turns out that my partners mother does not get moved and the whole thing is delayed until tomorrow. So the evening slides by with two football matches and the final draft of the blog before I take my meds and go to bed hoping for continued recovery.