Thursday and its my youngest daughters birthday and she and her partner are arriving to today. I get up and have breakfast and begin to plan the day. A friend calls and we talk for a long time catching up with how we are and how our respective families are doing. Its very valuable to me to be able to have these conversations, I always come away from them clearer about how I and others are. It is these conversations that crystallise some of the more nebulas issues that are floating around inside me. We end our conversation just as my youngest daughter and partner arrive outside.

We have lunch together and I see the first scan pictures of my new grandchild to be. My partner takes my two daughters to see their grandmother. I chat to my daughters partner for a while and then he has to go to a meeting as he is technically “working form home”. He is in our office adn will work from there tomorrow as well. I go the Shed and write a brief birthday note to a friend and replenish the hedgehog canteen. The Shed gets closed up and I post my letter before settling down to sort through the post, which now contains redirected mail from my sisters address to me. There are some documents in her mail that I copy and send to the solicitor just to make sure she is aware of the situation. Then its an early football match on the laptop.

The family gathers for dinner and we celebrate my youngest daughters birthday with chocolate cake, the opening of cards and presents and general birthday merriment. I watch some more football as I am tired and finally I draft the blog. I take my night meds and go to bed. Today has been a real mixture of emotions and it leaves me drained, I crave routine in which to do the basic self maintenance in but at the same time crave respite and idleness.