Tuesday and I am up determined to start fresh and t get back in to the battle for myself. Coffee and meds and I am off to the gym. A friend calls just as I am leaving, she is off to golf but for some reason the call gets lost. Before I can arrive another friend rings and we chat while I drive. Her daughter is not well and there is family juggling to be done. As she goes in for her blood tests I arrive at the gym. The gym is fuller than usual with tubby Easter bunnies working off their chocolate eggs. I get on board a bike and pump away for an hour. I burn 562 calories and go 22.53 kilometres and my calves felt every metre. I shower in showers that are actually hot and head for the lounge. There I drink coffee, eat a bacon and egg roll and reread for the the third time The Little Prince. The book is fascinating me, it clearly resonates with something in me.

I drive home, and on the way my sisters GP rings me just to confirm an email I had sent to them regarding my referral to social services to see if they can provide her with some support at the moment. I get indoors and sort out my kit and put the bin out for tomorrow. Somewhere in there I find time to renew the garden waste permit and run of the new bin collection timetable for the year. Just as the Tesco order arrives Ealing Social Services ring me and I have a disjointed conversation with the caller about what I want from them and why I made my referral. He confirmed that they were going to do an assessment of need.

The hedgehog get it food renewed and I drift into the evening which is spent watching No Time to Die. I clear the kitchen and retreat to bed in an effort to get to bed early and to start a more nurturing regime. So I am in bed writing the blog, sending and responding to messages and it is still coming up to 11 o’clock. Today has been a small start, it will have to be enough. I am acutely aware that there are family and friends out there that are having tough times right now so I need to look after myself if I am going to be able to offer support.