Saturday and I wake up to find my partner has gone to see her mother in the care home and I have a headache. I get up and make breakfast and try to rest. Eventually I work up the courage to check to see if my blood results have come in. The results are in my in box but I hesitate to open them, I realise I am quite anxious about what I will find. After some hesitation I begin to transcribe the results. When I get to the PSA result I get a big, very big surprise. I had been expecting for my PSA to rise post chemo rechallenge but it comes in at 2.5. That’s the lowest its been since August 2025, over a year ago. I had calculated that if I finished all cycles of the rechallenge the optimum I could achieve based on average reduction per cycle, was 2.4. So I am very surprised that it has come in at 2.5 some 50 days after the end of the re-challenge chemo. The rest of my profile seems to have stayed relatively stable. So I am taken aback and know it will take time to process the information and decide what to do. It will certainly change the tone of the oncology review on Tuesday.

I cast up the results and share them with my partner. I then hunker down and take paracetamol to se if I can shift my headache. I watch the English women’s rugby team play Australia and of course win. The game is interrupted by the Tesco deliver, happily almost at half time. I move onto the athletics and begin to draft the days blog. The athletics take me into the evening and I and my partner get to watch the final episodes of Trigger Point. I take my night meds and then get myself to bed. It appears after todays blood results that the question “what is this” is more tricky than I thought, could it be remission? What is clear is that my overall being is down to me to get right, which for a start means getting myself as fit as possible. This seems to be a crucial moment.