Saturday 04:33, I’m awake, so are the birds, dawn chorusing and the carriage clock is ticking in the quiet of the lounge. I cannot sleep, my blood results are in. Again the arithmetic is good, PSA has fallen again, so I’m not sure why I feel so crap as I sit here sipping hot water. I do not know what to think any more.
Just two out of range measurements, marginally so. My platelet count has ducked under 150 again and my Urea count has crept up again to be 0.9 above range once again. Apart from that every thing is tickety boo. I should be pleased and part of me is, but I am left wondering why I feel so crap, fatigued and anxious. My gut feels so off at the moment and I do not know if it is the drugs or not, its perplexing. I guess I need to try and sleep again and hope this break in the night will help me do that. The electrician is due in the morning.
The morning turns up and I have managed some sleep. My partner brings warm drinks and we chat for a while. While she gets up I do my vitals. It takes a while for my blood pressure to settle, but settle it does. I have the first muesli breakfast I have had for a long time and then set to work on the first draft of Herod’s Children Crumulent Collection (HCCC). There is a lot to do and it is pains taking work but I think I get to a version that can be worked with by the American team. My partner has taken my eldest daughter to a local jewellers to get a necklace mended. As I edit the HCCC draft the electrician arrives and starts to install a ring circuit in the new patio. He works away on it until lunchtime when he disappears and my partner returns. My eldest decides to go a Eurovision party in Norwich so goes off in an Uber to catch the train from town. This leaves me and my partner to sit on the garden swing seat to talk and soak up some sun. I pop some washing in and we go in search of Dawn’s Delight a cafe at the local equestrian centre. It is closed, permanently! We go to our usual place and indulge in treats before returning home. I watch rugby knowing tonight is Dr Who and Eurovision night. I hope I last.
